I spent a good couple of weeks at the end of 2017 planning out not only my goals for 2018, but also a spruce up of my vision board. This is a board I stand and stare at daily, partly to help me focus, partly because I feel like a general coming up with tactics in the war rooms. Hey, we all get our kicks somewhere.
I'm a HUGE fan of vision boards and any other creative ways to get my dreams in my line of vision daily. When I was younger my walls were plastered from floor to ceiling in lyrics, art, band photos, receipts, notes from friends, cards, gig tickets - anything that reminded me of a feeling or pushed me towards a dream. In hindsight, it was a mess but it was also teenage Terri creating a physical mind map of all the things she loved or aspired to.
With the help of a kick-ass brand new diary I spent a few weeks thinking about my goals, my inspirations and the messages I choose to live by going into the new year. I divided my board into sections and spent some time creating and collecting content to include.
The board is made up of visual representations of my goals in Professional Life, Relationships, Personal Development and Self Care. It also has reminders of mantras, emotions and feelings I want to cultivate in my life.
My phrase for 2018 is 'Fate Favours the Fearless'. I've been pin balling around for a few years and as I get older I'm noticing I'm a lot more anxious. However, I'm also a lot more self-assured. It sounds like a negative thing right? Nope. To me being self-assured means knowing my worth, taking the risks and forgiving the mistakes. 'Fate Favours the Fearless' reminds me to do just that: fear less.
When I started to remove fear bit by bit, a fire that had been simmering close to extinction was rekindled. And that, my friends, is the fire of not giving a fuck. I'd been so busy seeking inspiration in and validation from others that I'd come close to forgetting the fierce passion that is being yourself. Your messy, messed up, mess making self. I'm no longer apologising for being me, where I'm at or what I desire. It came to a cresendo seeing Corey Taylor fucking OWN the stage with Stone Sour but it had been building in my creative work, my desire for more than the easy way and the passion to LIVE my life, not just endure it, for a long time.
So one of my goals for 2018 is to keep this fire burning. Remind myself to be fierce, fearless and as Jen Sincero put it "Not fucking around". So far so fucking good, 2018.